My Super Ex Girlfriend

"what is this i'm feelin ?, i just can't explain!"

Yesterday I decided to meet up with my friend and ex-girlfriend, Juliet, upon her invitation. Why not? It's been a long while since we've seen each other. I am not excited to meet her as my ex-gf but as my friend from way back in High School. I realized that we are really better off as friends. Hmmm, so how did our love story started!?

(whoops, it's not easy for me to open up. but i will do it this time)

She was my very first girlfriend (could she be my only one though?). When we were in HS we're very good friends, I even used to defend her from her enemies. Come college, we went to the same school but was never classmates. It was brief, I just texted her if she can be my girlfriend after I read her Friendster message that she likes me. She promptly replied "YES," and there it was. I had an instant GF. We only met each other again after 3 years since we entered college. We met at school. Our relationship was okay at first. No pressure, no demands. It was smooth sailing, but as time goes by, we had our ups and downs. I decided to broke up with her. I realized that i can't bear with commitments. But it seems like, we are each others' only choice. We went in an on-off relationship which lasted for 3 years. We did not communicate after that. But I courted her again last 2009, and we became a couple "yet-again." But I have an issue with commitments. I was too self-centered. We decided to be off-again but with a set-up that we are still a couple but we there's no commitment at all. 

Last March 2011, I received a phone call from her. Informing me of what happened to her. She told me that she's a mom now. She gave birth last February. All of my questions were answered by the confirmation from her. She did not communicate with me and with all of our friends, since she was already pregnant and she wasn't ready to tell us. The father of her son remains unknown to us. She would not name names. 

When we met yesterday she narrated her stories. Her feelings. She decided to tell me the father of her son, she said it was a friend of her brother-in-law, but none of her family knows it not even the father of her son. She told me that she's been wanting to put in my name as the father of her son, instead of putting UNKNOWN. I did not give any comments. I don't know what to say or feel. But no matter what happen, I will forever be her friend. I wish her luck and happiness and success in LIFE.